Monday, March 17, 2008

Genesis

Here I sit alone again pondering,
Listening to heart felt harmonies,
Waiting for answers I already know,
Pity upon yourself is suicide without and before death

Author’s Conviction


Pen be my guide to a new world
Paper be the portal to an ebullient oblivion

Exertions of thought and emotion are linked in memory
Twisted by perceptions of this self-inflicted isolation

 Yield sentimental expressions of time in broken cadence
Joyous agony and blissful pain are my faithful muses

Words bring me closer to the pith of my existence
Bearing this exposes all of my heart to you.

Bethink

A night made for friends from great places,
Time dedicated to ones with a prior commitment,
Lost feelings clinging to the nearest willing victim,
Gathering in awe, friendship spurring from whim.

Reflection on a past filled with ignorant choices,
Bears a face forgotten, a heart as mine a soul with needs,
Strings of the heart that forced there way upon me, now cut.
One glance and I knew that there was something to go see.

Boyish games played for the meddlesome, not to convincing new likeness,
A new happiness to pursue but not seek, to wait and taste the touch.
Dwelling on a time when the chance was to be taken,
Focused on not being made out but determined to find out.

I looked into the eyes of a new found angel,
Pain of a past and the hurt to come, glistened.
Helplessness position, he arose again wielding light and dark.
Words are his only bethought, which holds the name.

Untitled and Insignificant

The journey began in a hallway lit by love,
A light far off and never truly present in the flesh,
From the darkness of the doorway opened
The time of life, for a purpose of others intent.

As the decision was presented to go back into the abyss,
The love burned to ash and arose a new energy
Animated by the neglect of a populace to serve for
A creed from the days of yore and the lineage of gallant.

Dawn approaches on a new day with hopeless aspirations
For perpetual mirth through daily routines of altruism,
The fulfillment of the soul can only do so much for a defiled heart,
A hope of some day gaining the fortitude to venture out for the beloved.

Time is the element in which conflict presents the only outcome of surety,
That which can set us free can take away the essence of what we are,
To wait for the new chance is maybe to kill oneself in by knowing the fate,
To know an end but not whose or for certain when will damn he who is foreseeing.

Torrent Experience

I stand in crowded streets among many souls,
Motionless is my heart as my life passes me by,
Rain hitting my face, cool is the breeze, taste my pain,
They hurry to leave, seeking shelter from it.

Sitting at my window watching children play
Through distorted glass as the rain raps way
I see free spirits careless of all my pain,
The agony of how the world goes on as my life stops.

The sudden realization of how the rain comes with never ending bounty,
No where I go, can I run away from it,
God gave us rain not for floods but as essential to life
Life being love, in love comes tears of pain and most of all happiness.

Timeless

We have come to a place in which we never thought we could arrive. We now live in fear of what it is we always wanted. We are now more aware of the things in my life, which we ignored. We have chosen our fate but to chance it would mean to lose what is set. The time has come for us to make the final stand in the presence Choices intertwine and weave to link together the path of life Nothing mattered and nothing to come matters more than this moment. Still memories lost in the vast emptiness of our souls rip at my intentions Looking back upon the regrets in our lives we look upon many people The pain we deliver returns itself in time in emptiness and loneliness We thought we could never lose but now we are lost and with out one another Stuck in the ripples of choices and bad experiences, we still live but with more pain. The past presents itself in terms of good and bad neither which can change The now is in terms of relative awareness of the exact presence of one’s self The future is only made of nervousness and hopes which allows us to dream The only thing that matters in the whole scheme is existence of the being.

Thur Troem Ansnas


Mirrored meaning reflecting truth,
To not have something,
Being without a word,
So much deceit in our labels.

Emit Dnae Volsnas


You say you love me,
I respond in the exact,
Truth is the reality of fear,
I say aloud, fearless of reality.

Time does not run out,
Your love never grows old,
Keeping my heart ever young,
Never growing, never aging, never living.

Love and time you have,
Your gift to me you share,
I accept your homage with humble knees,
Deny the right of the moon and to have significance.

Rias Nas



To not have breath,
Drowned in the confusion of dreams,
Suffocated in my pursuit for it,
To be rias nas…

Slipping

Slipping

The darkness of the hollowed soul,
Knows no wonder or confusion
Other than the undying it searches
for so valiantly .

That which the soul grasps at,
Is what the mind plays so repugnantly.

An unending incessant emotion
To be strived for, is that very aspect
Of the circle that one cannot conjure.

When sorrow and euphoria are brethren
When time and place play no part,
Completion for which is broken
Set apart from what is necessary
Of the poverty from the heart
To be forsaken and destroyed ,
Is what brings down the fiery
Storms of love, to ashes, no more.

Through one death gives one life,
A sacrifice of the soul to set free
Those who are so willingly enslaved
By the ambitious chains of ones
That gave nothing and took for
Granted what I so dearly seek.

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Forget the time we give,
Surrender to the pleasure,
That hath liberated our souls.

Take back those days,
Which you fear from,
Life or death slips through your door.

The light of our hearts,
be your savior, the shadows,
of good deeds yet be done be mine.

My goal, my purpose,
Still unknown but still
knowing it has yet be revealed.

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Your kindness makes me whole,
The beauty of your heart shines infinitely.
The stars are seen in your eyes,
Your smile is the sunshine of life,
In your arms is where my
When I sleep I want to dream of you,
To see you brings my heart pleasure,
Because of you, I sleep with the splendor.

pain

I stand at the mirror looking at a pitiful soul,
I wonder what was in my mind or my heart,
My heart now knows the pain and bleeds its own life,
Trying to hide my eyes I find questions and wonder why.

So many countless hours of exposing a soul that’s torn and broken,
The poisonous kiss that pulled me closer to a new death,
Nauseous spasms render a useless heart with no understanding,
I wanted this pain, I know it could grow out and be a love so grand.

My body gave to at the sight of a newfound beauty,
Passions so strong, to hold onto someone new,
I reached out with my soul but was pulled in by another,
Emptying what was left of hope to find the ONE.

Conforming to that which knew nothing of a world,
I wished for you to be happy through undying purity,
I could have given you that which can make you infinite,
The breath without the breathing.

I wonder how you said it and realize you never did,
All I wanted was something I wasn’t sure of.
You never knew my heart and its so many virtues.
A knowing which could span the vastness of your heart.

I now live in a confusion about all my existence,
The moon is full but leaves my heart empty,
When honest and pure its pain is great,
Now it hurts but it’s not honest or pure.

Sitting alone in the place where we initiated a friendship,
All my life, I never want to miss a thing,
The Iris of eyes in love burn bright,
My eyes burn, but from the thought of a passing.

What is to be will happen,
We still must not sit, but go out and make what will into what is.
I cannot let the small amount of my life pass me again,
No more darkness, but even with the night, the stars shine bright.

What to do next is up to you my heart is played by your soul.
I give to you the chance to lead your own fate,
You know what I want, but that cannot determine yours,
I can give you my life and you must chose what comes of that love.

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I have searched the stars for the perfect love.
My search is over for I have found you,
I discovered my utopia within you,
You are my euphoria and entirety.

Once my heart was swelled closed,
I had become encircled by dimness,
Empty and uncertain of my dreams,
I was a blinded soul filled with anger.

Standing in the dark waiting to fall,
Before I was to take the plunge I saw your spark,
A light that opened my soul and heart,
The light of friendship guided me to you.

In my darkness I was consumed by your fire,
In the time when I am blind and cannot feel,
I looked to the sky to see your love filling the stars.
Now our love burns bright for the world to see.

Ode to Freedom

Forget not those that have come before us,
And placed their lives upon the alter of freedom.
Those who served and died to bestow to all of us basic human rights,
Those that were taken from us, by enemies of liberty.

Forgive not those who trample over the ideals liberty,
Those who wreak terror over the lands and lives of innocence.
People, who attack the innocence of American, attack all people who uphold freedom.
America attacked is freedom attacked, the global ideal of freedom starts in us.

America is more than land, more than a government, more than a nation of people…
It’s a global ideal founded in the hearts of freedom seeking people,
Based from a nation where you are free to express, learn, worship, as one pleases,
A nation of people whom respect each other’s rights and personal freedoms.

We are a people of fortitude and resilience, incapable of yielding to injustice.
A free people unified by an essence of a libertarian society.
A people divided by class, creed, color, culture, convictions,
United under God, we stand together defending the flag of freedom.

Mother

You gave me life and unconditional love,
Wiped away my tears when I was hurt,
Put me to sleep when I was afraid of the dark,
Gave my soul the first lesson in love.

You were there with open arms and a caring heart
When I first left your arms and wondered into the world alone,
At times we are miles away and there is nothing in-between us,
When unkind words are said and anger is shared between us.

As I grow up it may seem I out grow the need for you,
When it seems that a kiss good night can no longer put me to sleep,
The business of our lives separate us from one another at times,
And the days seem to fly by but my need and love for you will never leave.

The time to show my appreciation for you is sometimes forgotten
And taken for grated what you are and have done for me in my life,
I will never forget who brought me into this world and gave me life,
I may grow up and leave home but my love and appreciation never will.

No card or gift can say how I love and appreciate you in my life,
I didn’t forget it was your day but every is a day that I love you,
Maybe some way this poem has touched you and let you know
How much you mean to me as a friend, a healer, a giver, and most important a mother.

Maternal Regard

They can bear our life with unconditional love,
Wipe away our tears when we are hurt,
Put us to sleep when we are fearful of the dark,
She feeds the starving soul its first lessen in love.

When we left her arms and wondered into the world alone,
At the times we are miles away and there is nothing in between us,
Fighting along with words of anger maybe shared and thoughts of apathy,
At which moment these happen she is there to forgive and to caress our souls with love.

Our lives go on we meet friends and learn new ways,
As we grow apart and no longer can a kiss good night put us to sleep,
We may try to find some one to share our lives with and leave the one who gave us ours,
They know we love them, but how often do we show our love back.

Limited times do we show our love and appreciation,
Never forget how we arrived here and who brought us in this world,
They gave us life and love, we are their life and love,
Give them what the deserve through life and love.

Heroes

The lives of great men are not measured in years,
But in the lives and hearts they have touched
For they come into our lives
And their kindness burns in our hearts
As it spreads amongst us like a wildfire
Even as they pass on
The fire of their compassion spreads on
Living through all our hearts and lives.

We call them our friends
We call them our family
We call them our Heroes

Five

Life was the morning
Cold as the bitter truth
The sight of my lifeless breath
Wind cutting through me.

Soon the warmth of comfort
Preparation for a short lived departure
The friend leaving for time

Darkness soothed my tired soul
Realizing loneliness of life
The timelessness of waiting was over

Truth rolled down my face
Truth was what I breathed so hard
Truth was me on my knees

Words entered the body
Never leaving the soul
Removing of the bricks
Of a wall built long ago

Catharsis achieved again
New understanding of what is
Life’s work was now revised

One song was the key
Happiness could be found
Love was in distant reach

Learning from the way once lived
No more fear, hate, anger, or haste
Only compassion, happiness, and love

From the slowly drowning of one
Attached to the brick,
The song freed me
Bringing me what I never saw.

Five Folds of whatever and ever
the key was in the name, the phrase, the song

One cold, dark, tiring night
One song one lose on gain
It is the then, now, and will be

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Dimly lit sitting face to face
Busy chatter whirling about my ears.
A long lost smile I have missed
Feasting on old memories and new hopes.

Lost in the time, focused on beautiful eyes
Hunger subsided, thirsting for something that cannot be quenched
An offer that was kind and selfless
That spoke more than she knew.

Five years coming to end
Nine years ever growing A new life being born in these moments

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What are my regrets if they lead to me to you?

How can I be sad about times missed,
When you are here now?

Why should I question a love that
I have never felt but always known?

Who can set me free of all the burdens of life and reality?

Can this be the beginning to the greatness I know we can be?

There are no more questions, only answers to be lived!

7172006_11

Upside down spilling years of thoughts
Peaceful serenity of friends touch
The smile that took me to the happiest days
Holding the hand of a newfound love
Laughing at memories past and the surreality of now

Flying friends and misshapen heads
lead to a night that lead to day
Listening to the soundtrack of our new life
Pondering the words, the melody of a familiar song.

The words you spoke pierced my soul
As the morning sunlight pierced the dark
One day that cannot be forgotten One friend who will be cherished

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It only takes your voice to free me
A hug to inspire me to glory
Only your smile to melt this ragged soul
The kiss that took to long to share

All to save me from the easy road
You challenge me to take the risk
I may lose it all in the attempt
But I have loved, I have loved you.

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Nine Years I have known you
Five years I have missed you
Seven days I found you
Twenty-four hours I adored you
Forever I will love you

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I gained a friend I had lost
I wasn’t looking and know you had gone
Be it fate, destiny or grand design
I have always known and wanted these moments

Time and life took us apart
Now I have lived without you
The taste of your kind love
Is the life I will live everyday

The fire has been ignited by your heart
Inspiration came when I did not look
Only when I needed you the most
The blaze we share lights the way to our tomorrow

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Home is where the heart is, Then my home lies east Where I left my heart I sit here bleeding with scars Soul bared for you to see Vulnerable, weak, craven Only to be redeemed by your love I am not whole yet but I am willing

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I pray I will continue to have the courage to take the chances
I have dreamed about for nearly a decade…

Does love ignore time and space?

Our lives were separated for a but a blink in the eternity that is our love
Great things will happen if we are brave enough to let them.

7172006_05

A force stronger than my own will,
I have pushed it away time and time again
Driving it only makes it more intense
I woke up to an unfamiliar face in an unfamiliar life
The pull was from something more than myself
To be something more than myself

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In the pursuit of greatness
I have made burdening mistakes
Given up on hopeful dreams
Lost the lovingness of friends
To change my fate and embrace the real one
Death will come many times over
I will break hearts for the wrong I have done
Tears will fall, words said, and dreams realized
That had been buried for too long.

I must fight for the chance to make right the wrongs I have done.
The journey will be hard when I stumble and fall
Loving friends with hands out-stretched will be my saving grace.

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I am damaged and broken filled with poisonous regrets
Worn down to settle for something less
Empty of all inspiration, dreams and glory

Somewhere an angle smiled on me
She brings with her a familiar love
Filling the void of a broken soul
The embrace to resurrect me from my abyss

I cannot do this alone…the path ahead is dark
The destination to far to see

With your beautiful light I can see out future
The road seems a little less long, a lot less empty.

A friendly hand to pick me up when I stumble.
How can I repay this?

Can I love her enough?
Will she ever know she is the angel of my memories, my now, and my future?

7172006_02

I know where I need to go
One word, one foot, is all I need
Yet, I hesitate and wait once again
Will life pass me by as I am making plans for it?

7172006_01

It’s noon in my life
The sun hangs high
Even at it’s brightest
The shadows are darkest

A new dawn

I fought the sunrise with an open heart.
You woke my morning up, that day.
No ground to stand but so far to fall.
These days are little bit longer,
Than all those that came before.Y
ou give second life and second breath.
No distance measures the impact of that touch.
No time is worth to only be seen again.

After dark

I wish you could see me for who I will be A memory of tomorrow is hope for yesterday Clocks stop the morning yet the sun remains Empty bottles stirring hearts filled with longing Black fades to white fades to black

Anticipation

Clam-less still with a penetrating silence
Motionless aching stifles brooding thought
Nervousness of shallow battered breathing
Nothingness perceived loneliness achieved

Beacon

The fog of past mistakes clouds my vision
Blinded by uncertainty and selfish pursuits
Wandering lost for time unknown to fruitless goals
The beacon on the horizons of a hopeful future
Guide me through this maze of repugnant regret
This is the path I chose to your light I go
Wrong turns matter not as the destination lies in hand

calumniation

Empty words are pointless lies
Half truths tearing into the binding
Intent has no bearing are consequence
Connotations lost in the translation of reality

Canicular days

Dry heat saps the last of breathes
Arid forces pulse from an irradiate sun
Scorched and blistered skin cracks
Thirst-less fear sets the stage of endless nights

Canon of Struggle

The distance, this silence, this empty hand is hard to bare
No time past has prepared me for the devotion I know
Does this emotion have a name to justify its depth
If this is life with you what was life before you

Coupled and Oblivious

Heavy hearts bleed sympathetic tears
Distilled minds breed conforming action

Morality ignored to conserve status quo
Hopeful redemption through conceived purpose

Dauntless

If I knew the truth I could write it
it evades me still the same
as succor to the broken heart
bleeding and dry, bruised and swollen

Am I so empty that you can ignore me
deceit and dark truth still familiar
flash that poison smile and taunt me
pluck the strings of this broken toy

Vacant deadlights drained of acuity
helpless words for blank souls
sullied and corrupt, intriguing and obsessed
as the brilliant pain of a perfect emotion

Departed Affection

I close my eyes just to see your face,
When I lick my lips I taste you,
To breath is like smelling you in the rain,
I reach out with my arms, and you are gone.

Sitting on the shore I hear your voice,
breeze rushes over my body, I felt your touch,
A chill runs up my spine like your kiss,
Starring into the horizon I can see us together.

Now I am alone and searching for our lost devotion,
Everyday you enter my mind, and there I wish to stay,
When I sleep we are together until I awake to reality,
Forgive me, for I can not find you, lost still in my heart.

descended

Submerged and drowning on the idle contempt of others
Bound struggling to free myself of the tightening knots
Rigid spasms dare not concede to an unwillful fate
Fierce gasp for life’s breath as the heart burns without air

Drowned

I have drowned in my own self-pity
Suffocated by the sins of my past
The bleak darkness consumes my battered flesh
My eyes grow heavy and the darkness engulfs me.

Egressing

This path I walk down goes by the name redemption
A one-way street with my destination in sight
Alone was marching without direction
Discovering you were with me right in stride

Finding Moira

Destiny lays not the mystic ether
Free of subjective delusions
Action matched with right mind
Holds sway the bright lines of fate

From Abydos

Standing here at the zenith of time
Spinning reality grabs hold the day
Vertigo in life’s splendid stupor
My heroine heroine of SestosDare
I swim to drown in my addiction
Is there no hand to light this beacon

Heaven

What if heaven were just a moment
A series of minuets or memories relived

Mine would be wrapped in that blanket
Next to you, fighting off sleep as the sun woke

No distance or time between us
Just words and feelings unspoken

The touch so slight and innocent
I have lived in heaven with you.

Intent

It’s no accident when my hand meets yours
There is no coincidence when I see you in a crowd
Fate will not exist until we accept the truth
These arms have been empty without you, without me

Journeys

Dark is the night, fog in the valleys
Headlights on, seeing the path ahead,
Beyond the lights is an unknown mystery,
Minds closed by false senses of security.

Window down, air bowing through my hair,
Buzzing shiver, inducing my sleepless serenity,
Warm breeze rushing ,like a mothers whisper,
Silence focused on an assumed destination.

Euphonies fills the minds and closes the voice,
Words harmonized to the fullest relaxation,
Rhythms unconscious but still pondering the universe,
Infinity in our hearts, laughing at our childish souls.

As our goal is in sight we lose all faith,
Anxious bodies brought on by deceiving eyes,
Destination nowhere is reached and failed,
We left behind our past and all that was wholesome.

Laconic Prudence

Countless words empty distant hearts
Neither voice nor tone carries the message
Void of touch yet bountiful in deep embrace
Sewn are seeds of great promise to bear the loving fruits

Bracteal

My heavens grow grey above me
These hands bare no emerald fingers
My arms no longer bear fruitful labors of the past
This breath grows cool around me
Soon I will be naked for all to peer
To sleep I go for seasons to wait
Awaken in time by a warm morning’s glory
Alone and dying, suffocated by nature’s will
Wilted and broken, thirsting for life
Faded and crowded, lost in a blanket of identical faces
Disconnected and falling, caught in the cool winds of fate

Mastication

The teeth that do bite the flesh
Rip and tear away the sinews

Voids of barren élan vital
Indwell the vexatious flesh

Amaroidal suggestions gambol
Across the sodden tongue

Carnal reflexes domineer
Blissful paroxysms of pain

Lingering urges abide
Beyond the ken of our felicity

Memory at the pond

Musical lyrics dance streaming like a dream
Cool breezes kiss the sun touched skin
Echoing laughter abound with wide smiles
The fire burns deep within brightened souls

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Her voice echoes in a cacophony of passion
Silently reverberating the paradigm of this essence
Evoking ardent fervor and the propensity to abide

Recurring notions to embrace her soul’s integument
Bathing in the chastity of consanguineous anamnesis
Composing a newfound longing for the intimate embrace

To taste the to breathe of rapture
Caressing the tepid silken skin
Beholding your graceful pulchritude

Staring enthralled into the irises of inviting symmetry
Carnal desires are born and lay wait in the mind
Temporal avidity to her angelic being

Entwined bodies and brushing of souls
One heart beating in sequential rhythm
A melody of breathes and minds

Time is paramount over lust as it must be
The promising hope waits in the twilight
Aspirations to exalt the foreordained bond

One Liners

Life is measured by our capacity to exist between birth and death.

What do we fail at that we truly dream (dare) to achieve?

Through applied action of our heart’s desires do we ever truly succeed or fail.

We have the unique opportunity to take control of our lives and succeed everyday.

Self-realization may be the key to unlock our true motivated potential.

The greatest treasure to be found by anyone hides within ourselves.

Leadership is not doing what is popular but the willingness to do the unpopular right.

Our education did not start in a classroom and there we should not leave it.

Right action set against unpopular choices may be the quickest path to understanding benevolence.

Unguided opinions and misdirected obsessions are the seeds of tomorrows reaping.

Politics are the gross avoidance of proper responsible decision making.

The mass that is the populous of the constituents is neither represented nor heard.

Our greatness as individuals is often dulled by our willingness to compromise into a majority.

Ethical action is not always about knowing what is right and wrong but understanding the difference.

To be employed is to be either the slave or the master of our fortunes.

The chains of employment bind us to the commonality of humanity.

The rat race is never finished by those focused on winning nor won by those focused on finishing.

Indentured servitude in our modern culture is our willingness to surrender to the concept of a corporation.

The idea of success is polluted by the acquisition of wealth.

Is it possible to survive the nine to five while only living the five to nine?

Tending yesterdays ground bears little fruit tomorrow

Brilliance is measured by actual output rather than perceptual input.

If we are to dream by the moon and wish with the stars then dare to live with your feet on the ground.

The loss of individual identity in the workforce is the willing sacrifice to flourish.

my shadow

Today I saw my shadow, follows where ever I go,
When it is dark about me my shadow still marches to and fro,
As I step into sunlight basked in all its healthy glow,
My shadow grows darker visible for all eyes to see and know,
I cannot hide from it, always in step right with my heel and toe.

The Opticon

Essences of light channeled through crystalline eyes
False images and the illusions of an apocryphal reality
Reversed and twisted, glowing auras of knowledge
Recalcitrant minds empty of solicitous initiative.

Persistence of Memory

I saw your face through a crowded mirror
Reflections shattered by your didactic smile
Broken memories littered beneath my feet
Shards of happiness splintered and forgotten
Glittered echoes shine through dark hands of time

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Today is all I possess
No material to keep my company
I have no cloth or ragged thread
Today is my dearest of friends
It cannot run or tread this soul
Never leaving , always returning
Today is here, my goal achieved
There no is distance to the dawn
My work is done, to home I go
Today is gone to my deep slumber I fall

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A journey starting along a common path diverging in separation
Roads paralleled and apart forcing our isolation
False illusions reveal a path converged in singularity
United again by will and fate to our destination
Hand in hand

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Untold feelings and unanswered questions dwelling in moments past
Innocent bounds with cheerful glances of meeting but never knowing
Hearts in rhythm with the dance of an unforgettable memory
Moments of the past sharing visions of a united fate
Gifts of little consequence compelling a timeless bound between two souls

Possibility

How can I forget you when I’ve always know you?
Does it matter where we were?
Find me now and let the world remember.
Now is time to reclaim your greatness you deny.

Poison

I am the poison you commune with
The blight that rots souls to withering ash
A pox that plagues the heart weakling the bonds of life
Festering disease that spreads consuming our hopes
Disfigured and crippled waiting for the antidote
A cure to heal this pain and ire.

Practice of Alliteration

Didactic duality of diabolic dichotomy,
Magnificent mirages mirror manic malaise,
Broken battered bits buried beneath beauty,
Shattered shards shred seemingly soft steps,
Prolific parables of proverbial prejudice,

Resuscitation

I dare you to wake to this world
Wipe the tired naïve dreams from your eyes
Breathe deep this reality you’ve ignored
Now is the time to take steps from your nest

Rules of Engagement

Do you play this game for reward,
What prize is worth this price I bare,
Was I a pawn to be moved and sacked,
I‘d have waited for you to learn the game
You chose your path, now the game is done.

Silenced

Are there no answers to my questions?
Does my breath fall on apathetic ears?
I am burning and no one sees.
There is no end to the turbulence until you choose.
Do you see I am not hiding it, here it is!

Silent Intent

I know what you dare not say
Those hidden truths betray us
Silence resounding in your idle anguish
You hold your breath while I wait

Strum the strings of this heart no more
Even your empty words carry heavy intent
You’re the stained glass that I shine through
Filtering what you need to cast a distorted image

Without acting you have shown clear your choice
How does the passive heart justify this nothing
Has your heart faltered, does it sway so easy
That time and distance can fracture it all

Burden of stone

These days are counted by the lack stones
Neither pebble or boulder you cannot hold nor throw
With each new day comes new breath- the sweet air of time
Tasteless not bitter but ripe for the picking

Behind me lay piles stacked with great numbers,
For the recent days more than those before
My shadow holds less as we are encumbered not
The darkness we cast faded, withdrawn to the past

The last stones I will never miss or mourn
For they are but the damage is done, the scars remain

Down this path I travel to the end I seek
If I am to reach my destination in time
The stones I still carry mustn’t be the stones I keep.

Suffering Distension

The pain you show is by the light of day,
Don’t try to play your games on me,
Tempting my heart, plucking my strings,
I am a person with a heart that you hold on your hands

All I try to find, that for which was never handed out,
Sit next to me , smile at me, please hurt me, you must see
Loneliness is nothing but a balloon with a hole
The more your love fills me , the closer I get to erupting.

The Advent

Late night questions bearing early morning answers
Tangerine skies lit by the morning’s awaking sun
First dawn’s light breaks through the trees Friends sit silent watching the new day rise

A gentle touch to speak the words unspoken
To slumber embraced together as hearts flutter
For memories of the past and hopes for the future
The needless wait proposed, an endless love born

More than a new day brought forth by this dawn

The amaranthine

Time is beyond our gauge of turning sprockets
Existing beyond the raising and setting sun
Greater than all the seasons come and gone
Continuing past the experience of life through death

It’s only real measure is evident in your immediate grace

Your never-endless ubiquity undeniable power of presence
The essence that transcends beyond concept
Ever present love knows nothing of time
Existing only in the immortal cycle of truth

Tired Minds

Tired minds set at ease twice the minuet past
A prayer set forth from a worried soul to bare a burden no more
Conscious still and frozen waiting for words of panic
The storm brews and bellows a crossed a trembling heart

Torrents of anxiety rain down rapping against your words
Two hearts connected to a single life ponder the conception of a third
Empty sentences fill the void as minds race with concern
The questions answered the worries set at ease

Peace of mind achieved for the moment balance received
Empty worries thrown out to the wind to sew the seeds of curiosity
Crisis avoided, normality returned yet it still lingers silent without word
Emotions twist and swirl until my realization awakens

Calmness is but a mask to hide the face of intentions
The present may not be ripe yet the future seems so far
I have lived a life without you only to see,
Now what I am not able to live without.

Torrent Experience

I stand in crowded streets among many souls,
Motionless is my heart as my life passes me by,
Rain hitting my face, cool is the breeze, taste my pain,
They hurry to leave, seeking shelter from it.

Sitting at my window watching children play
Through distorted glass as the rain raps way
I see free spirits careless of all my pain,
The agony of how the world goes on as my life stops.

The sudden realization of how the rain comes with never ending bounty,
No where I go, can I run away from it,
God gave us rain not for floods but as essential to life
Life being love, in love comes tears of pain and most of all happiness.

Tres del Sol

Two of the greats brought together
A sacrifice by the third
Selfless and painful breaks
Hopeful heart bleeds best wishes
The result is the heavy gamble
With a cost unmatched by reward
Waiting begins with a burdened spirit

Trivial Reminisce

A new struggle fraught with endless waiting
No end in sight, the dark of dusk sets again
To be held so high yet so far away from you
Is there nothing that can be said for true sentiment
No one can know me more than you ignore
I see you fight it and I bear the it’s sting
This jealous smile wears so heavy on hearts
I am crushed to see no end to your blessing
The cruel fate of twisted hearts is no game
There can be no victor without more loss
I can be more if set free from this lonely prison
Take me for who I am or forget me for who I am not

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I scream on your deaf ears
I cry on broken shoulders
I love through an empty heart
I feel through numb hands
I have no intent other than you
I believe in falseness of me
I forget the promise that binds
I laugh at my bloody pain
I stopped existing without you

Wasting

This game of waiting has no winners
The players never made conscious of the pieces
The pieces we are but avatars in the knotted maze of rope
Twisted and unyielding the harder we pull
The stronger the confusions bind to unknowing victim
We move in turns oblivious to an ominous goal
No rules set the standards of achievements or an end
The winds of glory do not blow in the favor of the leader
The stillness of a hundred wasted lives
Sets the record for the spectators and the hopefuls for tomorrow
Take no pity of them for we are the bearers of consequential fate
The rope without end or beginning just a loop of reoccurring delay

Lorn Animus

Lorn Animus

Conscience obstructed by the grey clouds of duality
A singular moment spinning in storms of dark transition
Weight of an unknown crushing preconceived illusions of faith
The hands of time grip tight the bonds of a necessary truth