pain

I stand at the mirror looking at a pitiful soul,
I wonder what was in my mind or my heart,
My heart now knows the pain and bleeds its own life,
Trying to hide my eyes I find questions and wonder why.

So many countless hours of exposing a soul that’s torn and broken,
The poisonous kiss that pulled me closer to a new death,
Nauseous spasms render a useless heart with no understanding,
I wanted this pain, I know it could grow out and be a love so grand.

My body gave to at the sight of a newfound beauty,
Passions so strong, to hold onto someone new,
I reached out with my soul but was pulled in by another,
Emptying what was left of hope to find the ONE.

Conforming to that which knew nothing of a world,
I wished for you to be happy through undying purity,
I could have given you that which can make you infinite,
The breath without the breathing.

I wonder how you said it and realize you never did,
All I wanted was something I wasn’t sure of.
You never knew my heart and its so many virtues.
A knowing which could span the vastness of your heart.

I now live in a confusion about all my existence,
The moon is full but leaves my heart empty,
When honest and pure its pain is great,
Now it hurts but it’s not honest or pure.

Sitting alone in the place where we initiated a friendship,
All my life, I never want to miss a thing,
The Iris of eyes in love burn bright,
My eyes burn, but from the thought of a passing.

What is to be will happen,
We still must not sit, but go out and make what will into what is.
I cannot let the small amount of my life pass me again,
No more darkness, but even with the night, the stars shine bright.

What to do next is up to you my heart is played by your soul.
I give to you the chance to lead your own fate,
You know what I want, but that cannot determine yours,
I can give you my life and you must chose what comes of that love.